[Lyric] Truth Told (Z (of Firing Squad))

[Verse 1: Z]
See there's a storm inside my mind and I ain't brave enough to face
Painting portraits of my S.O.S. in the open like it's Craigslist
Thinking deeper than the grave is where my grandpas body's laying
And forgive me for not praying, but I ain't ever have the patience
Me and this microphones relation is a complicated station
Cause she listen but don't embrace it, and remind me the room is vacant
And I don't know why I kept saying that being hard is obligation
When I really just wanna erase it cause old me was on detonation
And I don't know why I'm an asshole when my bitch just want attention
Probably the same reason I'm spitting, cause my mind is always drifting
I'm a loner in my cranium and saving 'em is a distant
Shot into the dark, I'm turning satanistic into Christian
I'm sorry 'bout the Squad, sorry the family feel is missing
Cause the music was applause but now awkward's no longer misfit
And I wish I could give my family all the time they fucking missing
But truth told I love the road and this is my only talent, gifted

[Chorus: Jennifer Kemple]
Tired of madness truth be told
I'm a poor and broken soul
I don't know which way to go
So I'mma just pave my own damn road
Guaranteed to fail but hey
I'll look back and laugh some day
You know we burn and wave alone
Truth be told
[Verse 2: Z]
I couldn't tell you why I think
I'm Gods gift to fucking Earth
Until I'm walking off the stage and shit starts turning for the worst
Never once admit I'm wrong, no matter who the fuck I hurt
And the shit my girl deserve is probably better than I'm worth
Man I'm twenty-nine years old and ain't got money for a urn
If I have to die today and burn my family'd be broker than they were
I want to give my kids the world, but all I'm working with is dirt
And so my overall perception of success, it's on a curve
I apologize to everybody that encounters my disturbed
Drunk version of my nerves cause he's less than a perfect nerd
Maybe ruder than absurd
And say shit that should never be heard
But he love you all the same
My mind just rotten more than yours
The profit overtook me 'bout five years ago or more
And that's all that I've been looking for while ignoring all other doors
Sorry I can't say I am cause the money is the door
I mean the look inside my children's eyes when I buy 'em shit's what it's for

[Chorus: Jennifer Kemple]
Tired of madness truth be told
I'm a poor and broken soul
I don't know which way to go
So I'mma just pave my own damn road
Guaranteed to fail but hey
I'll look back and laugh some day
You know we burn and wave alone
Truth be told
[Verse 3: Jennifer Kemple]
The piano keeps playing, even if nobody listens
Life is unfair and filled with difficult decisions
Fam not fans is the way that I've been living
Promoted from the sub-branch to the main devision
And I lost plenty of sheep, when the wolves did attack
The weak ones was lost, but the soldiers came back
Still trying to spin gold from the same haystack
And keep our sun shining though the sky is pitch black
And it gets hard every day just to watch my fucking mouth
Cause the system overloads and the sparks come flying out
I keep pushing up, though things keep falling south
My children keep me anchored when the bottom falls out
And I know that I will make it
But I'm a human filled with doubt
What hasn't killed me makes me stronger, pulled the stitches out
Although it hurt like hell
Although I cried loud
The scars never healed but they fade away somehow

[Chorus: Jennifer Kemple]
Tired of madness truth be told
I'm a poor and broken soul
I don't know which way to go
So I'mma just pave my own damn road
Guaranteed to fail but hey
I'll look back and laugh some day
You know we burn and wave alone
Truth be told