[Lyric] UPFRONT (Satisfy)

[Verse 1]

Look at where I'm at now
I hate the fact that I'm so sad now
I hate that I'm depressed with what I have now
I deserve better. I don't think you understand how
Much I'm dying on the inside. I struggle and it's hard for me
To push through. What I'm going through is so bizarre to me
Growing up, never in my life thought I'd be this way
Never had problems. Wish it didn't have to be this way
Blame it on the people and the world who started all of this
I wear my heart on my sleeve. That's the biggest fall to this
Why do I get trеated like the way I do? I don't know
Why do I feel likе this is nothing new? I don't know
Why is everybody so cruel to me? I don't know
Why is this the fire that is fueling me? I don't know
Why does life have to be so hard for me? I don't know
I hate it every bit. I'm stuck when I'm tryna go
To get away from all of this. I feel like it's burning down
On me. I just wish all of this would start to turn around
I just want my friends back cause they got me through a lot
But we're not as close anymore. Wish we never stopped
Hanging out. Nowadays, I don't have nobody
Outside my family, I can go to. Wish I had somebody
In my life who understands where I'm coming from
But I don't. I'm alone in a world full of scum
[Chorus}

I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore
Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core
I am so exhausted like I never been before
I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor
I just hate to be the one
Who's dead inside. I know I want
To open up cause I am done
So let me spill and be upfront
I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore
Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core
I am so exhausted like I never been before
I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor
I just hate to be the one
Who's dead inside. I know I want
To open up cause I am done
So let me spill and be upfront

[Verse 2]

I wish that I can do what I love for a living
But I can't cause I'm broke. I hate that I'm existing
I hate I have to work a normal job just get by
And pay for my music so my dream can survive
This is all I see myself doing far as life goes
This is why I'm here on this planet. I just might go
Quit my job, pack my bags, and runaway
It's hard for me to handle everything that I explained
In this song. Along with that, I'm sick of pleasing people
Who don't want a thing to do with me. It makes me more evil
I bottle up hatred and it triggers my anxiety
I wish I had drugs that would make me less fiery
Make me less anxious. I am such a nervous wreck
It is such a task while I try to put myself in check
Try to look past. I gotta learn to move on
But it's a process. I wish I could improve on
My mental health. It sucks this is who I am now
Used to have it easy. I don't know if I can now
Try to make a change. It might be too late for me
Destroyed on the inside. I'm sick of waiting patiently
I don't wanna give it time. I am so mad
Why am I alive? Wish I wasn't. I'd be less sad
I am so hopeless. I feel like I'm defeated
In every way. Now my soul is feeling more deleted
[Chorus]

I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore
Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core
I am so exhausted like I never been before
I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor
I just hate to be the one
Who's dead inside. I know I want
To open up cause I am done
So let me spill and be upfront
I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore
Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core
I am so exhausted like I never been before
I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor
I just hate to be the one
Who's dead inside. I know I want
To open up cause I am done
So let me spill and be upfront