[Lyric] THISISNOTANEXIT (NXOV)

I come into the bathroom
Turn on the light and turn the water on
It's such a shame it's a Friday night and I'm staying alone at home
But I can tell
Tonight
I'm going to do my best
Yeah, i know just a perfect way to deal with a long-lasting stress
I take antiemetic, so body won't fail me with what I'll be doing next
I stayed in how water for 46 minutes i already tied the tourniquet
Mom and will be surprised to tears when they see all that
I'm a fucking piece of shit and i'm sorry for that

Blade in my hand
This is shaking
Okay
I'm a little scared
This is taking longer
But i'm dedicated as hell, you know me
And so I start I use the razor on me

But something goes wrong
My blade is being stuck
So I push it with more effort
Now the bath is filled with blood
I start butchering my veins
But it doesnt feel enough
I am stopping when I almost
Cut my fucking hand in half
As I look at blood on my hand I understand what I've done
To my mother and father
As i look at the blood on my hands i know I've made a mistake
And I cannot leave the bathroom