[Lyric] Trying (Woahaa)

At least I’m trying, baby
No you couldn’t love this mess
All I see is the ugly
You couldn’t handle that
Do you think you deserve my best
I’m trying, I’m trying
To make it all better for me
You thought this was about you when it was all about me
Lately I been feeling sick in my spiritual
You only get help if it’s physical
I’ve been praying for life
I deserve it no matter if you think it or not

You said you’d give me guidance and advice
What do I really need that for
I can’t be myself and you’re fucking someone else
Tough pill to swallow at the moment
I gotta accept it and I did
Hurt like hell in the bеginning
Had to let go now I see it
Best thing I did happy to admit it
I forgave you but I didn’t
Trying to work my way around of what happеned
Don’t know when I lost myself but I was tripping on you
Emotionally unstable, you were right
It’s like I got better overnight
Moving on
Evolved in secret, you didn’t know it
Don’t know if you even noticed
I got tired of hurting
My heart was always gold
Sometimes I didn’t show it
I was mad and I let you do it
Glad I let go, oh oh
Had to let go, oh oh
You was never around to see my best side
I was a rider at the worst times
Put myself last a couple times
Still tried after rejection
I know I played a game on you
I regret it, that shit kept going
I used to wonder how it would’ve been
Deep down I know you was messing around when you was my only
You said I gave you that hickey but I didn’t
You blamed it on the liquor
That told me I wasn’t your only
I wasn’t going to sit around and get played
You should’ve said you didn’t want me
Only kept me around to what
I let go, I let go
I let go
I’m not mad about it